Lacking.

I just want to be there

When we're caught in the rain

I just want to see you laugh not cry

I just want to feel you

When the night puts on it's cloak

I'm lost for words don't tell me

All I can say

I love you 'till the end

-The Pogues

Incomplete.

"It's like I'm trying on a new pair of shoes that I really want to buy, but they just don't fit."

Anticipation.

Today I made it official.

I turned in my NSE application and fee ($150, nonrefundable)

I sure hope I get accepted.

I did end up changing my #1 school back to California State University - Northridge from Florida because I found out that most of Miami is spanish speaking and the NSE lady told me I would be the only blonde.

ha.

I can speak a little spanish but it would just be too hard being at a new school in a different state and not being about to communicate with anyone.

CSUN is pretty competitive but I am crossing my fingers.

Stay tuned...

Impatient.

I miss my long hair.

It has been a good 2 years since I have been able to put it up in an actual ponytail and I have decided that now is the time to grow it out...long.

I have been taking a daily vitamin hoping that will help speed up the process.

I am not sure if it will, but it can't hurt.

Curious.

Is it unrealistic to want a Romeo and Juliet kind of love?

...

Because that is what I am waiting for.

Honored.

Sofia Grace.

This post is simply a tribute to my friend Hannah Jayne and this little bundle of joy.

I am honored to have Hannah as a friend, She is the most humble, generous, wisest person I know. She is doing the most selfless act any mother could do and I am so incredibly proud of her. It is indescribable how much I love and miss her.

Vulnerable.

She checks her pulse, gotta know if her heart's still beating
And the hospital's, not far if anything should happen here

She's bored in a week, big dreams but nothing material

And I refuse to believe that love is for the weak

I said I'm not vulnerable

Hey lady, don't give up on me
Don't burn your heart out love
Till we're ash over seas
Hey lady, said I don't wanna fight
Like pretty girls need cowboys
I need you here tonight

She screams for more
More than just some blue eyed metaphor
And I'm not crazy I'm in control, and all of my friends still know

Hey lady, don't give up on me
Don't burn your heart out love
Till we're ash over seas
Hey lady, said I don't wanna fight
Like pretty girls need cowboys
I need you here tonight

I'm on one knee, lover please
How can I put it more simply?
And I wait, for your invitation
And I'm so so so, so over waiting
I'm on one knee, lover please
How can I put it more simply?

Hey lady, don't give up on me
Don't burn your heart out love
Till we're ash over seas
Hey lady, said I don't wanna fight
Like pretty girls need cowboys
I need you here tonight

Hey Lady

Thriving Ivory

Slightly tragic.

I am the opening credits to Bridget Jones's Diary.

You know, the part where she is alone in her apartment, watching movies, and lip syncing Celine Dion's "All By Myself".

That is me, spot on.

Sad yes, but quite funny in a way.

Just call me Ms. Jones.

Finished.

I am officially done with my National Student Exchange application and I am so excited to turn it in tomorrow.

Part of the application was getting your academic advisor and one other faculty member to fill out a recommendation/evaluation sheet, and I asked the professor I had for Argument/Debate last semester, Denise Gorsline.

If you go to MSUM take one of her classes, she is great!

I went into her office today to give her the sheet and we chatted for a little while. I told her that I was a little nervous to hand in my application and that I am really hoping to be accepted. She told me that she knew I was going to get in, there was no way I wouldn't.

She really knows exactly what to say and when so say it.

Even in Debate.

I am probably one of the worst public speakers. There is a lot of stuttering, shaking limbs, forgetting and umming. Before I went to speak she would always tell me that I knew what I was doing, I was prepared and I was going to be just fine.

She is really a marvelous teacher and I am so honored to have been one of her students.

I got to pick four schools that I wanted to go to for NSE. So spent a whole day researching and this is what I came up with...

1. Florida International University

2. University of Georgia

3. Queens College, CUNY

4. California State University - Northridge

I know in my previous post I said that I was going to California, but I had to put it fourth because they don't have as strong of a photography program as the others.

The NSE lady told me that if my #1 accepts me than I have to go there, so I am crossing my fingers.

How awesome would Florida be?!

I would be happy to attend any of those universities, I just hope I am not getting my hope up.

So true.

Stay tuned...

Jealous.

Love these!

I wish I would have come up with this idea.

Cheesy.

Isn't it funny where your dreams take you?

I always find that even if I have a scary dream, I wake up refreshed. Like coming back home after a short vacation.

Dreams are funny in their ability to carry us away,

even if it is only for a little while.

Familiar.

Well I am back at school from a truly amazing time at home.

I got to catch up with my close friends, eat home cooked meals, sit by the fire with my family and sleep in. I am going to miss all of that very much.

But now it's time for school.

I have gone to all of the classes I will have for the rest of the semester and I am actually pretty excited.

Except for speech.

Yuck.

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Just incase you haven't laughed today, here is a picture that brought tears to my eyes:

Stay tuned...(and warm)

Normal.

Linnea Fitterer

- Proud weirdo since 1991-

:)

So I guess you could say I am a some what obsessive person.

If I like a movie I will watch it probably 10 times in a row, or if I get a new song that is catchy, I put it on repeat until it plays about 50 times.

Sadly it is the same with celebrities. Well male celebrities to be specific.

Since my love life is none existent, I find myself watching many youtube interviews, reading magazine articles and googling photos (& the occasional daydream) of certain hunky celebs.

But I am not one of those girls that believes they actually have a chance with any of them.

I am not crazy.

I simply think of myself as an admirer.

So who is currently first on my admired list you may ask...

Gerard Butler

:)

What can I say?

I have a weakness for accents, pretty eyes & muscles.

Bored.

Today has been a pretty lazy day.

I woke up at noon, ate lunch, showered, and hung out with my family.

Since they go to bed at eight o'clock (they're lame), I had to find something to do to occupy my time.

So being an art major I decided to make something.

This is the result:

I was inspired by an imgfav picture.

It is a little weird but I really like the way it tuned out.

I am planning on making a bunch to frame in a series.

Stay tuned...

Trapped.

Oh to be a bird,

free to fly without responsibility.

I long to be a bird.

With the new year many people start making their resolutions.

Well I never really followed that tradition.

This year instead of committing to losing 10 lbs. or quit biting my nails I have decided to do something a little different.

This is going to be a year of preparation for me.

I plan on preparing myself financially, emotionally, and mentally.

(but mostly financially)

The plan is to move to California.

Yes, California in the spring of 2011.

I thought I was happy with MSUM and I was, because it wasn't New Prague. I have only been studying there for one semester but I don't feel like I am accomplishing anything. I feel like my life is standing still.

I feel stuck.

The art program is great at MSUM and to my surprise I did very well my first semester, but there is something missing. I don't know what it is, or if I will be able to find it in California but I am going to try.

MSUM offers a national student exchange program where I can pick a university in the U.S. that offers my major and is apart of this national exchange thing. I can study there and pay in state tuition or MSUM's tuition (I still need to research the details).

So I am going to the University of California - Northridge!

Once I get back to school after break I am going to contact the NSE person and make it official.

I really think this is just what I need. MN will always be my home and forever have my heart but I think I am ready for a massive change.

It is time for a change of scenery and get my life off and running.