Inappropriate.

I have a little obsession with this kid. He is 15. I am embarrassed, but I can't help it...he has the voice of an angel.

Scared.

Yesterday I found out that my mom passed out...again.

Not many people know this but about a year ago or maybe longer, she passed for a long time in our bathroom at home. I have never been so terrified. She got a special monitor put into her chest because the doctors didn't know why this was happening to her. They thought it was something to do with her heart but they were not positive because it could have been something in her brain too. So when she passed out at work yesterday the monitor picked up the problem.

Her heart stopped for about 10 seconds.

Good thing she works at a hospital that specializes in Cardiology. Last night she was able to get a pace maker put in which will sort of shock her heart if she ever passes out again. After I found out what was going on I had the worst feeling in my stomach. I wanted so badly to be with her just to comfort her and put my nerves to rest. I just wanted to hear her voice, smell her Miss Cherie Dior perfume, and give her a hug.

After her surgery I got calls from my step dad and a text from my oldest brother, Dan, saying that all is well and she will be home in the morning. I am so relieved. The doctors know what is wrong with her and so now they can fix her.

P.S. Today is her birthday.

I love you Mom.

Eager.

London('s) Calling...

Me.

Ambivalent.

If you are reading this and you don't know me very well, you might not know that I don't want to have children. But if I were guaranteed to have kids this cute, then I might consider it.

Nerdy.

Amber eyes, gorgeous, blood thirsty, mind-reading, gorgeous, super strength, ageless, gorgeous.

Yes. I am one of those.

I can't help it.

New Moon is my favorite book of the series so I am pretty excited for the movie to come out. Although when it comes to movies that are based off of books that I have read, I am usually disappointed with the movie (like with Twilight)...but I am still excited.

Hopeful.

This is my favorite song at the moment. The lyrics describe my love life to a T.

(P.S. This has my vote for cutest music video ever!)

I'm Not Surprised

Not Everything Lasts
I've Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I Stop Keeping Track.
Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up
And Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Loose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Know Someday That It'll All Turn Out
You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Mmmmm ....

I Might Have To Wait
I'll Never Give Up
I Guess It's Half Timing
And The Other Half's Luck
Wherever You Are
Whenever It's Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility

Mmmmm ......

And Somehow I Know That It Will All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

They Say All's Fair
And In Love And War
But I Won't Need To Fight It
We'll Get It Right
And We'll Be United

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility

Mmmm .....

And Someday I Know It'll All Turn Out
And I'll Work To Work It Out
Promise You Kid I'll Give More Than I Get
Than I Get Than I Get Than I Get

Oh You Know It'll All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
Yeah I Just Haven't Met You Yet

I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Oh Promise You Kid
To Give So Much More Than I Get

I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

My Dying Wish.

All I want is a bench.

This may be a little early but if I have learned anything over the past couple of years it is that life could be over in an instant.

I saw this on imgfave.com and I thought it was so cute. So just to put it out there...I would like someone to make one of these for me after I die. In return I will save you a place in Heaven :)

Stuck.

Yesterday my roommate was sick so the last place I wanted to be was in our dorm. So my friend Brianna and I took the bus to Broadway and walked around. It was nice to get off campus. Sometimes I get really sick of it.

I like this one^

This month is Breast Cancer Awareness Month so a bunch of bras were donated to the cause and hung up outside Hotel Donaldson. My floor (2nd East Snarr) decorated and donated some to put up.

(Click on picture for a larger view)

Childish.

Although I have been down in the dumps lately these pictures always seen to put a smile on my face. I would LOVE to do a child(ren)'s shoot and dress them like super heros/villains.

Maybe when I go home next Lauren (my seven year old sister) would model for me?

Way Beyond Sad.

One of the loves of my life was stolen from me...I am devastated.

:(

B.A.

In dreams there is truth.

Hannah and I both got tattoos yesterday. I have been wanting to get it for a long time and it was a rainy day so we just decided to check out this place in Fargo (46 and 2 Tattoo - Reviewed as the the best tattoo shop in the Fargo/Moorhead area). They were having a slow day so we got in right away.

Pretty much the best wednesday night ever.

Love.

I am pretty much planning our future together already. Well not really, but a girl can dream, can't she?

Wise.

I got to chat with one of my greatest friends, Moll, tonight. She is probably one of the wisest people I know and while we were talking she reminded me of this...

Even after only being at college for a little over a month I think I have come a long way. I am a changed person, yet I am still me. 100%. That is the most important thing in my book.

From experience : Stay try to yourself and follow your heart even if others tell you otherwise. You are the only person that can tell you who you are and what you will become. Shed those people from your life who only bring you down and cling to those who bring out the best in you.

Searching for...

Surprised.

I rarely get mail. So on Monday when I just happened to look in our mailbox just incase there was a slight chance that some one sent something to me, I found a pink slip! A pink slip means that you have a package at the first desk. So I picked up my package, carried it back to my room and it was a Dean and Deluca tote bag. I have the greatest (ex) boss EVER! I love it so much...I am using it as a purse. It made my shitty week so much better :)