Blessed.

These words are stuck in my head.

On sleepless roads the sleepless go.

In repair.

Too many corners in my mind,

so much to do to set my heart right.

Oh what's taking so long?

I could be wrong, I could be ready.

Oh but if I take my heart's advice,

I should assume it's still unsteady.

Juvenile.

We are only young once so lets...

break the rules, go skinny dipping, eat fried food, & howl at the moon.

[I'm trying to be more spontaneous]

Stay tuned...

Alive.

Some things I've gotten really into lately...

My creative writing class

Turkey burgers

The combination of a sunset & mountains

George Harrison

Adventure

Bewildered.

But just for now...

Inept.

Dear Audrey,

How did you do it?

Stylish.

Last week I broke down.

I felt I was living in someone else's world.

Loneliness took on an entirely new meaning.

This week I made a realization [thanks to a friend].

Even though I am in this odd & overwhelming place,

I am here.

I can't keep waiting for my life to start because it has already started.

I am living it.

Sometimes that's hard for me to remember.

I am going to make the best of this wonderful experience.

I won't let myself wish it away.

I've done that too many times before.

There is still something missing inside of me.

But instead of moping and dwelling on it, feeling sorry for myself,

I am going spend my year:

listening to good music, reading good books, seeing beautiful things & taking pictures.

Maybe something will fall into place.

If not, I still have another coast to discover.