Bittersweet.

Well the time has come. Tonight is the last night I will sleep in my own bed as a permanent resident of my parents home. I really can't believe how fast my life is going. Well I guess that is just the way it goes.

Unfortunately the past couple of days I have had to say good-bye/cya later to a bunch of really good friends who I am going to miss dearly. Last night at a bonfire I said good-bye/cya later to one of my very best friends. She has helped me so much and kept me strong through my darkest days. It was heart breaking to have to say good-bye but I got through it (after about an hour of crying). It was really hard for me to tell her good-bye because she has taught me a lot about myself and I didn't even realize it until I was hugging her good-bye. It is really hard for me to imagine my life without some of these people but I know for a fact that I will see my friends in the future but right now the 'future' seems so far away. 

I move up to MSUM tomorrow bright and early. 7:30 AM ugh. I am really excited and nervous. Excited to meet new people, have my own (shared) space, have more freedom, and get a fresh start. I am nervous because I am on my own. I am nervous that I won't be able to succeed. I am scared that I will fail. 

I know that I am not alone and the majority of college freshman are feeling the exact same way but I feel a little lonely. Really lonely actually, but I believe in my dreams and I have confidence that I will be able to make the right decisions and get through college with ease. But you never know. 

Stay tuned, exciting things to come...